Current mood

Current mood: Listening to 五月天

"Has anyone ever felt this way before? When you're trying to explain things nicely to someone but the person is just so stubborn and rude to you to the point where you feel like tearing up? Not full blown crying but just feeling a little moist in the eyes. I hate arguing and so, most of the time I would just give in. But I hate looking so weak to other people. I am a guy and I really want to stand up for myself but I just can't :(  "
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#30793: https://nuswhispers.com/confession/30793

Truly, i have felt this many times...
Is not i xiao qi . Sua nvm life still has to go on man.. so i wouldnt be so upset about this!! :)
Thanks that tmr and next sat i have no school! I definitely deserve this break.

Lately, i have been sleeping on the floor. Changing patterns, bed then floor then to bed... always been feeling cold all the time even with no fan on at home... am i going to get sickness or any illness?!!!
Also being emotional at times but doesnt show out to people, suffocating myself.. oh no... i hope i dont die...
Sometimes even feel like crying but telling myself not to!!!😊 life.. this is life.... i am not being negative .. life is fragile enough alr. So lets stay positive 😄🙋

It's thursday!!

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true oh
All I want for Christmas is you!!!

Bet you doesnt know ... haiz....

Is friday again!!

Hi...
some of my friends are weird. My uni friends...
In my 1st year, i got to know many new friends in uni. There this girl... she was in my poa class . Wait... she was in my msm class too... then from there i got to know that she is in the same poa class as me! Then we have lessons together.. after a while, she MIA without replying my msg and stop attending lecture?

Now in year 2.. i got to know a girl in my FR class. She have been missing lectures from the start as she told me she changed module from one to FR. Not sure why did she choose FR. She is taking uol masters in banking & finance..and then... suddenly she will leave the lecture halfway. One time saying she is going overseas with friends for a short getaway that why she leaving lecture halfway. And then we lose in contact as i never see her in lecture? Okay this is weird....

Ah.. yay this weekend going JB!! Excited for it!😉 LOL. I am glad my mum didnt like keep nagging me not to go like last time . Last time i always secretly go JB without telling her! But now... i can so easily telling her i am going JB HEHE. And she will ask me to help her buy stuff😃

I felt like i have matured a lot leh. But my mother said NO I DIDNT.  😬
I do housework when i am free
Help family settle some stuff eg like the selling of my grandma's flat without finding property agent(Okay credits to my uncle for teaching me how to do it😊..) and it is really easy to do that after he taught me.. 
Help pay bills and blah blah and organizing those bills..
I told my mum where u can find such daughter sia...
I am glad that i have learnt a lot and i appreciate my colleagues at work and everyone that guide me.
Thank you😊

A good friday

Good morning....zzżzzz...
Lol this week sunday i got school hohoho. Not complaining... it is already half of the total lectures alr. omg how time flies leh...soon it will gonna be May..  how i wish time can be slower leh. 😦

But i will be awaiting for the time i can finally relax and not do anything 😊😊

Bad headache yesterday

Had a bad headache yesterday.. right after the lecture... guess havent have a good sleep.

Went home straight to sleep right after the lecture. Was supposed to go shopping with my mum in afternoon, end up going in the evening right after i rested well. Thanks mum for always 迁就 me😊😊

Then today assignment submission and class test. Woke up early to complete it and class test wasnt prepared too as ytd i was too sick.. but is ok the test fail also nvm HAHAHA.
Hate to be so weak...  sleep solves everything!!

SERIOUSLY TOO TIRED

HI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JESSICA BRAHMS

LAZY TO POST THE PIC THAT WE TOOK YTD

ANYWAYS, ITS IN MY INSTA!

WE 18 PPL BOUGHT IPAD FOR JESSICA! SO... JESSICA....YOU BETTER USE THE IPAD WISELY!!!

I AM GLAD THAT I AM ABLE TO SURPRISE YOU! HEHE. COS SHE DOESNT KNOW I WILL BE GOING TO HER BIRTHDAY DINNER! HENCE,SHE WAS SHOCKED THAT I WAS THERE WITH THE REST.... HAHAHA

DOUBT SHE WILL READ MY BLOG... ZZZ I AM JUST TRYING TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF COS I GOT TIRED SAYING MY THINGS TO FRIENDS LIAO.....

I THINK THEY ALSO THINK I SIAO ALR.

TRUTHLY, I FELT LIKE I AM CRAZY...SOMETIMES MY BRAIN ALSO GOT PROBLEM LE. I CANNOT THINK PROPERLY . TOO MANY THINGS IN MY BRAIN .

I NEED A MASSAGE!!!!
MY SHOULDERS ARE SERIOUSLY FEELING SOUR. HAIZ MUST BE COS I SLEEP ON THE FLOOR. THE FLOOR IS JUST SO COMFY FOR ME.

SLEEPING ON THE FLOOR IS NO GOOD.

I FEEL MY BODY IS WEAK. I WILL GET COLD EASILY. SOMETIMES I DOESNT NEED THE FAN TO SLEEP.
AND THEN MY BRO AND SIS THINK I CRAZY COS THEY NEED THE FAN.

THIS MONTH, I CRIED TWICE....

AND.. I FEEL STUPID FOR CRYING. I AM JUST TOO WEAK.. NEED TO BE STRONG.


BYE GUYS.

THIS SHOW IS NICE!!!
AT THE START, I ONLY LISTEN TO THEIR SONGS !!!
THEN... I WAS SO TEMPTED TO WATCH THE SHOW COS OF THIS TWO!!

I miss my grandparents. Both parents' sides are not around anymore. That made me feel that life is fragile. So, cherish on your loved ones. My indonesia side grandparents, my grandma will always say i am silly when i visited them. I miss her saying that to me...
I have seen my parents feeling sad over them. When i see them feeling sad, i also will feel even duper sad but i am not the kind that will show out my sadness... u guys can see me always laughing smiling  , well i prefer to be like that than showing my sadness... instead i prefer to spam my close friend YuJing Hahaha somehow we sync easily and always have the same opinions and thoughts. 😎 2 years back, when my  grandma passed away, she was 91. Her maid cried so badly and will even dreamt of grandpa coming to find grandma. Glad she is doing well. Hence, i hope my parents know that even if their parents are not around, there is still us children around to rely on. The reason why i always play jokes with my family at home is cos i love them a lot and treasure the time we have. Always saying my sis is cute cos she is really cute to me and she is really the best sister. She is independent and manage her time well that i aspire to be. . She dare to go out watch movie and eat Astons alone as she said she wan her alone time. Well, i nvr try to watch movie alone and go volunteering alone without friends. But she is cute, she slways spam me messages when she is alone HAHAHA though sometimes she will scold me as she is a fierce tiger!😁 but still cute lol!!!. my bro, i always disturb him. If you ever see my young photo, u will see most of the photos , i always hug my sis and bro when they were a baby and my laughter photos...i guess i like hugging ppl!!! Now i wan hug them, they dont wan me hug alr.😟😰  and my dad,The way my dad sometimes act, is like a child's act so i will be sad that he is growing old ! But... as we grow older, he will also will grow older. Well this is life ya...

I know i like you but .... i cant feel you. Totally. 😞💩💩

告白气球!!!

A night without sleeping

Good morning!

Too many commitments that i cant promise.
Very sorry to my parents..  when they wanna go out have dinner with me , i am not free. When i free, they not free. 😐😐 but they told me that i better study hard ah.  Okay i will hahaha.

My good friends, i am sorry, was the one that said about going adventure cove and this gonna take very long to be happen... 😖

Sometimes i feel suffocated with the things i have... my brain cannot process properly hahahaha so when ppl ask me things, like where is this and that, my brain cannot process, brain dead😅😅..dk is it cos i watch too much shows? Been watching shows everyday too much.

Crazy me

I THINK I AM CRAZY OMG BUT I FINALLY WATCHED THESE HK DRAMA FINISH !!!!
CRAZY SAT AND SUN BY CATCHING UP FINISH THE EPISODES. FINALLY FINISH!!!

WENT TO CUT HAIR TODAY, .. CANT STAND MY HAIR ANYMORE . LIKE A FINALLY. HAHA JESSICA ASK IF I GET AGITATED BY WHAT THING , WHY SUDDENLY CUT SHORT HAIR. AHAHA. ASK THE AUNTIE I DONT WAN TO CUT UNTIL SO SHORT BUT ANYWAYS SHE STILL DO IT  HAIZ. NVM JUST LET IT GO!!!

Saturday

That moment you were sleeping. .which i slept at 11pm last night..phone with 2% and worry that my alarm clock will not ring the next day due to low battery...  then in the middle of the night, you were awaken by the lights in the living room and thought that you were late for school..... thats me....zzZZZ MY BRO WAS PLAYING COM in the middle of the night & i thought it was my mum that woke up early , not knowing the time, i woke up to my shock due to the lights and went out from my room to check the clock and what time it is.. it was 2am+. So i went back to sleep.  

谢谢你

“谢谢你”（词：潇彬，曲：文颖秋） 曾听过很多难听的话 幸运的是我没被打垮 其实没有他们说的那么差 现实并不能让我趴下 我拥有一个温暖的家 她告诉我爱有多强大 她让最黯淡的过往开出了花 微笑是面对人生最好的办法 谢谢你 那些命运给的惩罚 谢谢你 所有关心不论真假 谢谢你 那些过得去那些过不去的伤疤 它在提醒我 这是成长的代价 谢谢你 那些匿名给的牵挂 谢谢你 不管好的坏的都罢 谢谢你 那些鼓励我那些看轻我的人啊 我都谢谢你 让我能重新出发 哪怕前方有再多的嘲笑声 哪怕回忆有多疼 我都不会放弃 最初的梦 wo~~ 谢谢你 那些命运给的惩罚 谢谢你 所有关心不论真假 谢谢你 那些过得去那些过不去的伤疤 它在提醒我 这是成长的代价

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmOqtG8iyyA

So touching

Wee the 9pm show so touching la sia... machiam my heart beat and PUMP PUMP , zzz too exaggerating liao. Last episode today. Awww. I will miss Brian & Fraser inside the show 😯😯.. wanna go Brian's concert one sia in Dec...man... but is okay if i dont go , i can still listen to ur music in the internet...all those xinyao songs❤❤❤...
These 2 days; have been feeling really sad but i did not really show out to my friends when i hang out with them in the weekends. Cos i do not want to let them feel it.... even watching kids and elderly dancing happily made me tell myself that i can be happy too even though sometimes sad?
HAHAHA. Jessica is a burden and she really owe me forever HHAAHAH.

Sometimes, i feel so burdened by many things but i burdened that person a lot. Sorry.

Glad there is no school today as it is Deepavali :) Finally can have a rest at home though not the whole day as later meeting my Sue Sue and her 3 cousins hehe. Yesterday was Sue sue 's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY... things i wanna said are in my insta. HAHA. She is the one that stayed with me the most till now ever since primary 4. choosing the same secondary school together... our third choices are the same, i still remember the schools we picked.
1st choice - CHIJ KATONG
2nd choice- GMSS
3rd choice- Manjusri

AHAHA. in the end, we got Manjusri. and choosing the same cca together :) hehehe
it is as if she is my long lost soulmate but too bad she is not a guy T.T

Nvr regret to be in Manjusri cos we got to know many really good friends!

LOL.

What make me happy

What make me happy?
- being able to make the ppl around me smile 😊
-my family. 😉 especially my dad, i love to treat him like a child and i love to be childish around my family.
- watching dramas
-sleeping
- you?
-friends

Please dont rain tmr morning

Pls dont rain tmr morning leh.... pls dont...i wanna wear my sandals to sch de... LOL. I gave my friend my blog link and i said my blog is to entertain you😅😊 ok i very boliao one.  Nobody read also nvm. I entertain myself 😆

Boliao de dako posting here again

There are so many many regrets and i am not doing anything about it. Why? Scared this and that . Diao.

Regrets
1. Hoping to talk to my 2 cousins that are of the same age as me. I like to talk to cousins and cousins' parents that are of older than me but problem is i dont dare to talk to cousins that are of same age as me? Every CNY, i was hoping that i can overcome this problem but i failed in it. I told my father about it and he told me to go talk to them as we are cousins ma!!!! Er... me timid. 😂 if my 2 cousins happen to read this... haha you know what to do ah... talk to me 1st pls.😂😂

2. Regretted not studying hard during poly? Totally hate the programming parts which made me stay in sch everyday till so late? Ok la this is my fault cos i hate it , leading me to score badly. But definitely miss the times i stay in sch till 1130pm with Naz😊😊

3. Doing badly in UOL year 1 though i did pass all modules for year 1. But the marks are definitely not i expected especially MSM.  MSM getting 54? So shitty hor? I also think so too. Really was expecting a 70.

Hi

I remembered I have a blog last time! HAHA. and now i decided to blog again... so Ytd was Mayday's concert in Malaysia. Hohoho that feelings come and made me wanna sing and sing <3 Hehehehehe 

What i have done today:

-Met huiwen's mama and huiwen for dinner. Its been a long 6 months plus not seeing them . Thanks wen's mama for the lunch treat <3 Good catchup! Am glad my dear bff grown mature and know what she wants. Jiayous! 

You know what is the weirdest thing? I have known them and their family since i was sec 1 and yet.... they didnt get to see my parents before due to my parents being so busy and busy with their work till now.......the next CNY, i should intro my family to them! :)

2nd thing: my mum wanted me to bring her to SGH A&E department as she complained about her nose, red lumps inside, and also complained heart being sian and stuff and she have an appointment in Mid Nov but she doesnt want to wait any longer to that day... so after bidding goodbyes to them, i sent my mum to SGH..

It was a long 2 hours wait. T.T but a no answer to that red lump.......cos there wasnt a ANT doctor in A&E department. ........ so money wasted on A&E fee. 

My mum worry too much, doctor gave her anxiety and medicine that will solve her insomnia.. So.. i told my mum dont worry too much and dont think things until so complicating !

There goes the end of my story of today.........